I can't sleep, I have to work out and try to lose weight. I have finals tomorrow, and it's 1 in the morning. Nothing but apples for me tomorrow. Apples, raw potato, carrots, water, and tea. Those are the only things I feel comfortable with eating. I can't do carbohydrates. They make me feel disgusting. After eating them, it seemed like I gained weight instantly in my stomach and inner thighs. I got so angry at myself. I long boarded 4 miles and smoked to try and burn off any excess weight I'd gained today. Why did my mom make me eat that stupid bagel? We were on the way to school this morning, and I was so devastated that I started tearing up